Sunday, February 14, 2010

Valentine's Day

So, today is Valentine's Day....the day that you are supposed to be feeling the love and enjoying being with someone you love. There is one thing I have figured out about this day and that is the best way to feel really really really lonely. All you have to do is get married then be apart from your spouse on this day. I thought I would feel okay about it seeing how I just saw my husband last week but I feel horrible. I don't think I have hated Valentine's Day as much as I do today. It is a really stupid holiday. It is supposed to make those who are in love feel even more in love but personally it is just making me feel like crap. I suppose I must learn to deal with being lonely because if my husband chooses to stay in the military then we have many deployments in our future. I thought I was strong enough to get through this first one but now I am not so sure. It is only 11 am and my husband does still have a chance to make up for the fact that I feel forgotten but it doesn't really matter. He is about to go to bed and he is 10 hours ahead of us so in reality he already forgot about it which is fine... I can't possibly expect a man to remember Valentine's Day. Maybe, I can just cross it off every calendar I ever buy so he doesn't ever have to remember and maybe eventually I will start to that possible?

So instead of getting upset like I normally would I am just going to forget about this stupid day and do some homework and maybe clean a few fish tanks (great day huh?)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

My first post

So, I finally decided to get a blog. I have not, however, given in to the world of Twitter.

I plan to use this blog to I suppose 'blog' about whatever I please. This could include anything from my life as a wife to the most amazing man in the world to what it is like to be a college student. I want to write this blog to keep my mind strong and to improve upon my writing skills.

So I will just jump right into it!

I am currently a junior at the University of Northern Colorado. Not only am I a full-time student but I am also a senior resident assistant in the residence halls and an intern reporter at the Windsor Beacon. To top it all off I am also a wife to a deployed soldier. He will obviously not be deployed forever but it sure feels like it.

One main reason I decided to start this blog at this time is because my amazing husband is returning home for his two-week leave this Friday. I am pretty sure that everyone I know is starting to get sick of hearing about my hubby coming home so this way I can tell the world all about it.

My husband, who's name is Simon (in case you were wondering) and I have been married for just over a year now. Our wedding was on January 2, 2009. It was a simple and sweet courthouse wedding. We knew that he was going to be deployed that April and we figured the whole deployment would be easier if we were married. I know many people think that we got married at that time for finacial reasons but that is not the case. I can say for sure that we would have gotten married at some point. We were and still are madly in love so it was inevitable that we would be married. We chose to get married at that time because it would be much easier for us to communicate while he was over there if we were married. Even though we have spent the majority of our first year of marriage apart, I can say with certainty that I am still crazy in love with him. I realize that I am only 20 years old (soon to be 21) but I know what love is and I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with Simon.

I read in Cosmopolitan the other day that marriages of younger people (under 25) are more likely to fail than marriages of "more mature adults" (older than 25.) I personally think that is crap. I think that many couples rush into marriage (not that I am an exception) without thinking about the fact that they are going to be with that person for the rest of their lives. I think that in today's society, not many people look very far into the future and therefore dont think about the future of their marriage. My husband and I only knew each other 6 months when we were married. Yes,that is a very short time, however it was love at first sight. I know that it seems clique but it's not. Many people my age are busy thinking about getting laid that they don't stop to consider the fact that they might find someone they love. And yes, I know that is a stereotype (at least for the most part.) When I first saw my husband I just knew there was something very special about him. He was sweet and kind...not to mention sexy. I will explain the whole story in a future blog because it is quite a story and deserves it own blog.

Anyway, I suppose I have made this blog long enough so I will end it for now but there will be a lot more to come.

Yours Truly